Hurry Up & Wait

 Yesterday, a friendly grasshopper stopped by to say hello to the kitties.

Yesterday, a friendly grasshopper stopped by to say hello to the kitties.

Like I tweeted yesterday, The Universe seems to be giving me Big Fat Symbols lately…

to WAIT.

WAIT on strategic work decisions before I can execute my deliverables.

WAIT on wedding plans to settle before I can perform Matron of Honor duties.

WAIT on traveling, home ownership, and having children until we have hit more financial goals.

… and so much more I don’t feel like vagueblogging about.

But waitin’ ain’t easy.

 Ziggy pawed him off the screen and onto the floor, yet he stayed.

Ziggy pawed him off the screen and onto the floor, yet he stayed.

For me, at least. I’m so used to going at warp speed. Stopping to smell the roses for TOO long tends to make me feel lazy, worried, and afraid. Someone might CATCH ME! I might get in TROUBLE! What if I’m FIRED? What if I’m FORGETTING SOMETHING?! (the horror!)

At the same time, when I’m going at warp speed, I YEARN to stop and smell ALL THE ROSES. Then I get a big fat martyr complex goin’ on. It’s a paradox, for sure.

Getting Shit Done is GREAT trait to have for professional growth. However, Waiting is so, so necessary for personal growth.

 An hour later, he returned to the window to meet Lola

An hour later, he returned to the window to meet Lola

The Universe is encouraging me to lean into this new stage in my life, where my sense of worth comes less from producing tangible outputs, and more from practicing stillness, patience, mindfulness, empathy, and grace.

What will this new life stage look like? What will manifest?

Guess we’ll have to wait and see.